Lost - Selfishness



Lonely Bench - By: Ragesoss

Even though I wanted to remain a child as long as possible, I, finally, grew up to be a teenager.

I still remember what kind of a girl I was - a girl who loves everything,  hates everyone except her friends.

My friends meant everyone for me. As long as I have them, I wouldn't need anyone else.

I would do anything for them. I would never be lonely again.

So, can you imagine how sad I was, when I lost my only best friend?

I call it "my first experience with selfish people"!

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You are the only one I ever loved.  Even though, you are the first one to hurt me on purpose.

Is this what I deserve?

I forgot my dreams, hopes, life and love. Everything is gone.

I gave them all to you.

You've never been so cold-hearted. Is it the winter? But the summer is almost here, and I am still waiting for your warm feelings.

Should I start looking for a mistake in my miserable thoughts? 
Even though I am in fragments right now?!

Two innocent eyes I liked, and a kind heart I respected have broken me.

Is it the end?

I'm still waiting for the day you come back to me, wipe my tears and listen to my words.

Until that day, I'll always love you. You are my pain.. and hope.

 The end

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What hard times, my little heart couldn't bear!

I, who can't live without friends, was lonely.

My tears never stopped flawing. My heart would burn whenever I remember.

Honestly, I didn't know what was happening around. I would speak without thinking, laugh without  feelings.

I couldn't see my life.

Yes, I can't understand that now, but I know very well that I was lost in a maze.

Being a "teenager" is really different!!

                                                                                                                    Updated: 8/31/2012